The House I Paid For Was Never Mine Chapter 08
“What’s the hurry? The house isn’t goingÂ
anywhere.”Â
It had not gone anywhere.Â
It had simply never belonged to me.Â
Gavin sat among those records all night. The nextÂ
morning, he offered to sell his car and part of hisÂ
company equity to repay me first.Â
For the first time, Brielle screamed at him. “SheÂ
lived in the house for five years.Â
“Why should she get every dollar back?”Â
“Besides, I wasn’t the only person who deceived.Â
her into making those payments.”Â
Gavin’s face turned white.Â
Her accusation was true. Brielle may have takenÂ
the title, but Gavin had always been the oneÂ
person who could have stopped it.Â
During my second month in Seattle, the projectÂ
entered its most demanding stage. At first, I sleptÂ
badly every night.Â
The unfamiliar apartment was quiet, and my old routines no longer told me what to do next.Â
I had to learn that loneliness was not the same as wanting the people who had hurt me back.Â
In the silence, I remembered birthdays Gavin had made up for and times when my parents had seemed to love me. Yet I still rose on time each morning.Â
Work gradually filled the hollow place in my chest with a new life.Â
My decisions mattered there.Â
Coworkers waited for my judgment instead of asking me to surrender something for someone else, and each completed task restored a little ofÂ
my confidence.Â
Three months after my transfer, the project reached its first milestone ahead of schedule.Â
When our celebration ended, Gavin was waitingÂ
outside the hotel.Â
He had lost weight, and his eyes were bloodshot.Â
The moment he saw me, he stepped forward.Â
“Laurel.”Â
I stopped several feet away. “How did you findÂ
me?”Â
“The company website published the project.Â
leads.” His voice was hoarse.Â
“I went to every place you used to visit andÂ
contacted everyone who knew you. Then I realizedÂ
didn’t even know where you lived.”Â
My old life had revolved around him. Once I left, heÂ
no longer had the right to find me.Â
Gavin took the crumpled note from his pocket. “IÂ
emptied the house.”Â
“Brielle moved back in with your parents, and I’llÂ
return every dollar you paid. After the baby is born,Â
I’ll divorce her.”Â
I reminded him calmly, “She’s carrying your child.”Â
“I’ll fulfill every responsibility as the father, but IÂ
don’t love her.”Â
His eyes slowly reddened. “I only understand nowÂ
that you were always the person I loved.”Â
He told me that every illness made Brielle dependÂ
on him and every meeting brought worship intoÂ
her eyes.Â
Being needed made him think he had found aÂ
more passionate love.Â
I knew him too well and could care for myself too easily. He had treated my patience as somethingÂ
that could never run out.Â
Only after returning to a house without me did heÂ
realize I lived inside every memory he had ofÂ
home.Â
I was the first person he wanted to tell when heÂ
was happy and the person he always wantedÂ
beside him when he was tired.Â
“I only took a wrong turn,” he said. “Give me oneÂ
more chance, Laurel.Â
“Please.”Â
I studied him for a long time.Â
This man had spent fourteen hours on a bus toÂ
attend my graduation. He had also walked into the County Clerk’s Office with another woman while IÂ
miscarried alone.Â
Both memories were true. I no longer needed toÂ
choose one to prove whether he had loved me.Â
“You didn’t just discover that you love me, Gavin.”Â
“You only discovered that I won’t keep loving you.”Â
The color slowly left his face.Â
I took the old note from his hand, tore it in half,Â
and dropped it into a nearby trash can. “If I forgetÂ
my keys now, I won’t call you.”
